*waves* Hey there. Glad to see you!
As the title says, today I’m going to treat my darling readers to some ramblings.
But first – if you don’t want to read this, you don’t have to. I’m going to try and keep complaints out of this post, but I may not succeed. ; )
Ah, yes. Sleep, the dreaded and the loved. At least by moi. I haven’t been sleeping well, lately – or rather, I have trouble falling asleep. As I like to put it, I never feel tired until I realize I’m exhausted. Which often happens at, say, midnight or later. I won’t waste any more time going into all the details, but essentially, as soon as I get into bed, I want to get up, I want to read, I want to do something, anything other than lay there and do nothing. I don’t know if I stay awake because I’m not relaxed, or if I’m genuinely not tired.
Writing, drawing, and other semi – productive pastimes
Regrettably, lately I’ve been having trouble finding the motivation/energy to do these types of things. I’m pretty sure this derives from lack of sleep, and I’d like to fix that, but I don’t know how. To be honest, I don’t have a very good history with sleep – my parents tell me the only nights that I fell asleep (and stayed asleep) easily were the first two nights of my life X D. So, I’m trying to fix a life-long bad habit : (.
I don’t feel that I enjoy drawing, writing, or doing anything that requires even a small amount of energy anymore. I feel that I might if I only got more sleep, though. What do you guys think?
Idle, “easy” pastimes
Lately, I find myself spending my time playing on the iPad and laying around more and more often. In my opinion, this may also derive from a lack of sleep and therefore, energy. It’s fun to do nothing, but at the same time, the guilt and lack of sense of fulfillment that comes with it is definitely not fun.
Scarily, I find that when given a choice between doing something productive (i.e. writing) and doing something unproductive (sitting around), I’ll choose the latter. It doesn’t mean that I like my choice, but unfortunately it’s what I seem to prefer. I want to change that.
So, what am I going to do about all this muddled mess that I made you guys read about?
I believe that the main problem lies in lack of sleep. So, I’m going to start a sleep tracker and record how many hours I sleep. My goal is to get ten hours of sleep each night – we’ll see how that goes. : D
In a future post, I’ll share a more concrete plan for being more productive and getting enough sleep.
If you read this, thank you! And if you didn’t, I understand. You didn’t have to.
Do you have any thoughts? Do you ever have trouble sleeping?